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I've.Moved.On.. to another BlogLink :D knowing me..what the fuck is new.
I don't think im okay. there's something wrong with me.. Take a look : - Time is moving too slowly for me - I have strong urges to rush through life ; thinking it will speed up time - One moment im fine..and the next im not - I worry too much - My intake of caffeine has increased - My impulsivity is beyond my control - Im suddenly health concious now - Im too thrifty at times - I have too many daily routines - I often feel spontaneous at the wrong time and place - I feel numb most of the time due to lack of social interaction - I have forgotton what it feels like to go through one day of not worrying about anyone or anything. - I get more and more annoyed with strangers..i hardly even know. - I cant find reasons as to why i feel this way, and i'll be frustrated at myself for not being able to - The things i do for my own happiness hurt many hearts along the way. - I want to be alone yet the thought of being alone scares me. - I worry for my own sanity, yet i feel im able to pull through. ... If i could let you hear what my heart is saying i certainly fuckingly would. i sound crazy..period..there's just so many things in my head right now its like sitting in my sec sch's canteen and having to bear with hundreds of talking Ij girls at a time, trying to make a decision about my life and what to accomplish next..ill just sleep it off..believe me i'd be ok in the morn..i always do..i apologise for my random 'expect too highly of herself' thrashing.. sigh, the downfall of being a virgo :/ HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! to all wonderful mothers, have a nice day and hope you are blessed with happiness and love always! I had fun yesterday with dawnnie!, wawan!, mimi! haha funfunfun i wanna hang out again!! soon yea? went shopping wit dawn and wawan at wisma..bought a top and jacket for amazingly 20 bucks only!! thanks to wawan for noticing the flesh imp 50% sale! :) i was sooo happy..and of course they bought some too! den i bumped into the fashionista dion! argh long time never see her!! :/ was really nice seeing her though :) headed down to far east for more window shopping, den took train to Rp for prac..went home soon after..was really tired aaaand thats a wrap!! haha for saturday that is..hmm and nooww..im craving for durian :/ thank goodness Buk bought some in the morn..im gonna have it riiiight now! ciao! :D Leave it all to me I will do the right thing I'll be everything i need maybe someday we will meet, And maybe talk, and not just speak. Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep. And my reflection troubles me- so here I go. im not feeling too well now, the weather has been harsh this few weeks..rain shine rain shine..and in class the AC is centralised so you cant really adjust it..this of course resulted in me having blocked nose now..hmm i was on shopping mode just now and yes i must admit i feel a wee bit guilty..compared to last time i couldnt control myself but i was proud cos i did say no to a looot of shirts/shoes/bag/wallet/accessories..oh i bought sch books too..from 2nd hand shop..its really really cheap and some of em are close to new..so i can revise at home now..i really miss art..cant wait for it..ive been geeting good remarks from lecturers and my discipline mistress lately :D weee..im waiting for my dad to send me some cash..cos ive been using my pay..i hope he'll send it soon..i cant wait to meet bestie!!!!!!! woohoooo!! ok better rest so ill feel much better asap :) I hope you guys will be blessed with marital bliss :) just came back from my cousin's wedding pics will be uploaded soon.. hopefully if im not lazy.. i just love my family! i really do..fun bunch xoxo i havent been updating cos nothing much to update anyway hmm school's cool, made friends here and there :) friendly friendly hehe.. hmm ive been feeling really really good lately i thought it would be hard.. but its not..in fact ive never felt this side of happiness before its so...new...refreshing i should say and with that im gonna change my appearance to celebrate the new me! hehe.. alright ive got homework to do..toodles! and as for You* im gonna take a step back.. for my own sake :) The sweetness sadness in your eyes, clever trick I'd never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me Goodbye my almost lover Goodbye my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be So long my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should have known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do Im starting school tmr, nervous like hell.. i hope evrything will be fine, afterall this is my last chance.. I lost someone today.. i could have been there for her but i couldnt spare her some time.. i had to choose.. and i chose to stay because ive learned to let her go knowing that im not strong enough to face her one last time.. so i didnt leave..i stayed here.. i wasnt there when she wanted to see me for the last time i wasnt there when she took her last breath.. i could have..but i didnt and now when i go back to Indonesia..she's not there i cant hug her anymore, or kiss her, or tell her how much i love her ill miss you so much.. i want you to know that i love you very much..and ill see you again, my dear grandma Dawn? i miss you bestie..and im sorry for not being there for you.. i want you to know that you've made life easier by being my friend you've supported me all this while.. and i thank god for granting me this opportunity to have a bestie like you.. you're truly one of god's best creations :) |